she-burnsmylungs

My eyes burn from being so tired of being awake.

They sting from so many nights of unshed tears that refuse to fall.

I’m always either too worried about the possibility of something happening to you to fall asleep

Or too drained of energy to muster enough to even keep my eyes open.

I can’t keep fighting for you and myself on my own.

I can’t keep convincing myself you don’t need me.

I can’t keep convincing myself you’re okay.

I can’t fucking do this.

I can’t fucking lose you.

I can’t stand having to watch you get worse.

I can’t stand not being able to do anything.

I can’t stand knowing it’s my fucking fault.

I can’t stand knowing you won’t let me help you solely because you’re scared of losin me completely just by opening up to me about everything.

I can’t stand feeling like this.

I can’t hide it anymore.

I can’t keep letting the guilt eat me up.

I can’t keep trying to replace what I had with you with someone I won’t even love nearly as much.

I can’t keep denying that the only one I’ll ever want is you.

I can’t keep denying that it’s my fault if something happens to you.

I don’t understand why you’re doing this.

Don’t you see how much it’s destroying me?

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A Visionary at the Age of Reason | Jean-Jacques Lequeu | Socks Studio

Jean-Jacques Lequeu (Architect, 1757-1825) worked in France at the same time of Etienne-Louis Boullée (1728-1799) andClaude-Nicolas Ledoux (1736-1806) and shared with them his faith in science and similar visionary approach, but not an equal fame. His research was even more unorthodox and imaginative, if possible, as his eccentric designs combined completely reinvented elements from several different styles and epochs.

Lequeu began his career as an architect designing buildings inspired by the antiquity for rich families, but after the Revolution he had to give up the free profession and became a civil servant working as a surveyor and a cartographer until his retirement in 1815. His design skills were then directed to what we might call today “paper architecture“, as he produced several utterly imaginative and extravagant projects that were never realized (and that weren’t even destined to be). Apart from his eccentric creations and “erotic” drawings, he also drew interesting new types for “revolutionary architecture”, along the line of more famous examples by Boullée.